Had a really sad Friday evening - My best friend left work today.

She and I have worked together over the last three years and she has supported me through no end of personal crap and I will miss her terribly.

Good thing is though she has a new job, which she is really looking forward too and is embarking on a whole new life with her new man (they are getting married in a few months and I am sooo pleased for her).

Saturday was a day of apprehension and triumphs and disasters.

Apprehension because I had arranged to go out on a "date" for the first time in forever... I will come to that later.

Triumphs, because a wise young man said to me recently - the reason people take the piss out of you (this was when I had been near to tears because yet again the ex had been calling me names and screaming down the phone at me) is because you let them! Dont stand for it - Treat people the way they treat you. Respect gets respect back - nastiness gets that back too. So when the ex knocked on my door Saturday and tried to talk to me, I told him to leave - but in a less polite manner. It felt bad, because I am not like that at all, BUT the look on his face was priceless, worth every bit of angst I had over being that rude... I really think he thought I was gonna just forget the last week of swearing at me and name calling and rudeness and invite him in for a tea as I usually would! It was a Triumph!

Disaster - well That "date" I was talking about, turned out to be a gorgeous looking guy with a fantastic personality and as horny as hell and I was so nervous I downed loads of wine beforehand, chatted rubbish for the two hours we were together and then told him I didn't think I was good enough for him and thought he needed a younger "supermodel" type, not a 5ft 3ins, single mum from Saff London!.

I then McCaulay Culkin'd it for the millionth weekend running again!!

All I can say is - I cant wait for work this week.... I seem to do better there than in my personal life hahahahah